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Sometimes I wonder what is going to happen in the future?
What has been laid out for me?
Am I just going to be an ordinary girl -work & rest?
or am I supposed to make something out of my life?
honestly, I know I am not suitable for big changes.
thats not me. i know myself well enough to say that i want to live peacefully.
however, we are all being caught in this ramapant lifestyle.
something that we tried to resist but ultimately, we will fall back again.
it's draining us, killing us softly each and every day.
but we do not have the courage to fight against it.
I am not saying I am capable of doing that.
As a result, I envied those who have succeeded.
They are living for themselves, not for the others nor the society.
how courageous they are, putting up a strong front for their aims.
I admit I am jealous, yet hateful of my vulnerability.
The peace that I yearned, the serenity that I desired could not be found here.
I must seek and explore. to find somewhere where I truly fit in.
And I truly believe that this day will arrive.