Hold on; My pretty boy

Ada Liu EX-PioneerJC her motto: Just smile.

Your voice will be heard;

The ones that stood by me;Y
Cheryl
Dong Hui
Evelyn
Jazreel
Jing Ting
Lynn 'PJC
Lynn
Magon
PJCSB
Qian Yun
Shu Ni
Si Hui
Xue Ting
Yi Fang

The past and the future;

credits

Design: doughnutcrazy
Icon: morphine_kissed

Helloooos.

It's been long since I last blogged.

It has been a hectic week for me

as the thought of A lvl is nearing.

gosh. can we like stop it from happening ?
no right ? then just accept it, Ada.

I have been listening to lots of songs recently,

just to come up with a playlist for my sis wedding :D

can't wait for her wedding though !

byes.

"A perfect life is what everyone yearns for.

It is simple to achieve it.

Just craft it in your dreams."

"Every portrait that is painted with feeling is a portrait of the artist, not the sitter."

.Oscar Wilde.

“Hope was a pathological part of puberty,
like acne and surging hormones.
You might sound cynical to the world,
but that was just a defense mechanism,
cover-up coating a zit,
because it was too embarrassing to admit that
in spite of the bum deals you kept getting,
you hadn't completely given up.”

I feel so excited now.
hahahs.
not going to tell you what happen.
shhhhs.

hellos.
I am feeling fine right now.
got over my failure in GP.
becos mr yeo says ,
"it's okays to fail now. but not A's."
i think thats perfectly true.
we need to hone our skills by practicing.
practice does not make perfect :D
hahahahas.
he is right by saying that we shld clear all our distraction.
and my distraction is computer.
so i have decided to stay for night study at certain days
& told my mum to stop me if I tried touching the com.
it's just another 4 more months to decide my fate for the nxt 4 years.
just 4 months. just 4 months.
i can do it.

oh no. I cried infront of my GP teacher & relief teacher today.

I already know that I would have failed GP ,

but when the results came ,

I couldn't accept it.

Told myself that it's okays. it's okays.

but the moment my GP teacher came towards me

and said ,

"it's okay , ada. you can try harder next time."

I just start crying. I couldn't take it anymore.

I simply don't understand .

why ? I put in more effort than everyone ,

sacrifice my breaks for consultation ,

go for remedial.

then how come I still can't pass ?

it makes me think upon the

idea that no matter what I do ,

it won't go right.

perhaps what my mum says is right.

"If you tried your best and still can't do it ,

then forget it."

she has officially given up on me.

I really don't know what to do.

but I want thank my GP teacher for her consolation

and Jingling (my RT) for wanting to go

thru my papers personally with me tmr.

to my friends out there ,

please don't mention the word GP infront of me

and don't tell me your grades.

if you pass ,

i wish you from the bottom of my heart a big congrats.

byes.

Hey peeps.

I feel dismayed towards my results.

I barely pass one of my econs case study.

13m for the first - fail.

I am definitely not anticipating the result of the second case study.

cos my econs teacher just drop the bomb on us ,

saying there is only 4 passes out of 18 of us.

tell me , do you think I can still pass ?

yeah , my friends keep on telling me got essays marks to help you.

But ,

they can't understand my feelings.

I have never failed econs before. Never.

And I did study for mid-yr.

Honestly ,

I don't know what happen

and it sucks to know that I only have 1 and a half month to prelim ):

Getting back GP tmr.

For my grp , only 1 failed.

I guess that will be me.

Hellos people.

I have been giving myself breaks for these past few days.

a reward for having no june hols.

hahahahas.

gosh. I seem to have fallen in love with this kind of life.

nahs , have to abandon such thoughts fast fast.

if not ,

i am screwed for A's.

Come to think of it .

I am left with 4 months.

you ask me whether I am afraid or not ?

to be honest ,

kind of. cos I am a dissatisfied being.

a mere pass is not enough.

I need something better than that.

"You are so irresistable

that one look at you

makes me head over heels."

“Betrayal was a stone beneath the mattress of the bed you shared,

something you felt digging into you no matter how you shifted position.

What was the point of being able to forgive,

when deep down,

you both had to admit you'd never forget?”

I'm super super sad right now. saaaaddddd.

simply couldn't believe that such a thing would happen to me.

okays. you must be wondering what have happened to me.

I got back my math results today.

when I saw that I got 50 ,

I was elated cos it's a D. a freaking D.

It's like within 3 months ,

my grades improved from a U to D.

BUT BUT!

I GOT MINUS 1 MARK FOR DON'T KNOW WHATEVER IT IS CALLED THE NOTATION AND PRESENTATION ERROR !!!!!!!!!

it makes me feel like I was in heaven for a moment

and it pushes me down to hell at the very next.

49 is a stupid stupid E ! ):

I am not happy at all even though I pass.

The amount of effort that I have put in

shld deserve me a D !

ooooooooh nooooooo. I hate hate my life.

I just can't believe that I am sooooo unlucky.

Honestly ,

life isn't fair. eeewwwws.

I think I shld just go cry about it &

mourn over my misery for the nxt few days.

kiddding! I won't do that.

I would just curse and curse my screwed up life.

hahahahas.

BB!

“It was a little like a scar on a polished wooden table-

you'd try to see the rest of the gleaming surface,

but your eyes and your fingers

would be drawn to the pitted part,

the one thing that kept it from being perfect.”

"There was a fine line between love and hate,
you heard that cliche all the time.
But no one told you that
the moment you crossed it would be the one you least expected.
You'd fall in love and crack open a secret door
to let your soul mate in.
You just never expected such closeness,
one day,
to feel like an intrusion.”

Exammmms are over ! hoooorays ! :D

I can finally let down my hair and enjoy myself for A DAY.

ok. that is better that nothing right ?

today hist paper was fine becos what I studied came out again.

hahahahas.

I think I have the ability to predict the future

but let's not depend on that for A lvl

in case it fails on me. hahahas.

I have been thinking alot during the course of having no laptop everyday.

it dawns upon me that I can leave without it

and need not be under its mercy.

Also , I tried to think back upon why I chose the route of going to JC.

I could have simply just go to poly to study my dream course - mass com.

why did I have to suffer right now , under the pressure of the upcoming A lvl ?

It was because I wanted to go to uni to study mass com

and get my degree for advertising :D

It was such a perfect dream that drawn me to study JC -

a one way ticket to uni.

My dream. seems so perfect yet I am struggling to achieve it.

I was reminded by Plath - "perfection is terrible".

But it is this dream that keeps me going on and on ,

hoping that one day , the ads that I do will leave a deep impression on everyone.

Right now, the only thing that I could do

is to study and study everyday.

becos everyone wants to get into my dream course

but only the few will be selected.

It's kinda sad isn't it ? Pursue dream or not ? Can I achieve my dream or not ?

All these questioning will never stop.

Only when we start questioning ourselves ,

that's when we truly understand who we truly are.

"Dreams are today's answers to tomorrow's questions."

Edgar Cayce

wait. I am very very happy right now.
so happy that I can't wait to share this good news with everyone.
stop. stop. i need to close my mouth before i die from smiling.
are your ready for the good news ?
.....
MY SISTER IS GETTING MARRIED!! I GOT AN ANG-MOH BRO-IN-LAW!! :D
hahahahahahahahahas.
they are getting married nxt yr at UK first.
and my whole family is going there.
heard that? i am going to UK!!! (:
hahahahas. cool cool cool right ?
and and and.
we will be staying there for a month before we fly back to sg
for another wedding ceremony.
don't you think it's like a dream ? hahahas.
i feel sooooo happy for my sis.
and i have seen anthony before.
he's such a perfect gentleman & a great chef.
chef & doctor - a perfect pair!! :D
i think i can't sleep today
cos i just simply can't stop smiling.
i am going to be a bridemaid. bridemaid. BRIDEMAID.
hahahas.
anyway ,
i sincerely wish my sis and anthony a blissful marriage
becos i know you will be there for my sis till the rest of her life.
hold her hands tight and to my sis :
i love you so much that the love you shared with anthony
touched my heart.
you have made the right choice. he is your soulmate.

“What if love wasn't the act of finding what you were missing

but the give-and-take that made you both match?”