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Such a pretty face; Not meant to be mine.
When the journey becomes difficult, turn back and look at the shadow waiting for you at the corner.
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Your voice will be heard;
The ones that stood by me;Y Cheryl Dong Hui Evelyn Jazreel Jing Ting Lynn 'PJC Lynn Magon PJCSB Qian Yun Shu Ni Si Hui Xue Ting Yi Fang The past and the future;
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 "Your facade has been revealed. Admit it. You look ugly."
 Tears fell onto my clarinet.That's when I realised I have finally breakdown. Reason ? My poor results. What happen today just serves to remind me that I could no longer smile like I usually did. More hope - More disappointment. I feel indifferent towards my life. Always.
 "All it takes is for you to have the initiative to smile back at me. And I am still waiting."  Currently,it's 2am now & here I am blogging on my life. Ahs. I am seriously dying from lack of sleep. There are piles of work to be done yet with so little time. Anyway, this girl which I choose not to label is just a BITCH. Honestly, she's stepping on my toes. I feel that she's just overly concern about herself. Not considering th fact that each and every single one of us have a life to lead. Hello, I did talk to you nicely & yet you give me th asshole face which just irks me. For goodness sake, my parents HAVE TO WORK on sat ! & it been tough for them to sacrifice their breaks to come and see my shitty results. So what's your problem ? Duh. You are seriously an eye sore to me. Just get out of my sight. Hms, finished ranting & I feel kinda of cooled down . Oh no. It's 3 am now. Not another 3 hrs of sleep. Arghs. "The last words that you said to me was to carry on with my life and forget you. And I failed."
 I feel exhausted. I feel tired of school. My greatest wish is to get over & done with SYF. Honestly, it's freakingly taking up sooo much of my time that I am lagging behind in my studies. It's kinda impossible to juggle both academic & cca at th same time. Anyway, a guy in my class has officially gone down to J1 cause of being unable to cope with his studies. Thats the harsh reality that one has to face for not working hard enough. Duh. I am too tired to think of anything now. Not with the 4 hours of sleep from monday. "I have never let you off my mind for a second. Yet you let her stay in your heart forever."
My Pretty Boy :D  Went for a movie date with C.'17 Again' ! Hahahahas. Finally have a close-up look with my pretty boy. Awws. He's so so freaking cute ! Gosh. Zac and his dazzling smile will just melt any girl's heart. I kinda like this movie alot cause of it's meaningful statements which reflects the truth about life. Anyway, th whole focus is on Zac Efron, my lovely boy (: Hahahas. The movie was hilarious & C. and I were laughing like crazy during th movie. And th worst part of th movie was my Zac was slapped 9 Times ! I was like pissed off & wanted to scream: "Hey. That's my boy okays ?!" I have enjoyed th movie with C. and really hoped that much more of this kind of dates would come along (: Looooves - "It's just a transformation to make you realise that when you have a second chance, that's when you learn to treasure - life."  Hola ! Just came back home frm band and it's currently half past nine now. No homework done & I am feeling lethargic all over, plus a bad shoulder ache. That's my life. Accept it the way it is. Anyway, it's time to submit th application for 'A' lvl. Super nervous though. It's like coming so fast ! :D hahahahs. Feeling quite ambivalent at this point of time. Ahhhs. I don't know lahs. Good luck to YF & all th modern dance peeps for tmr's syf ! Your hard work will definitely get you a GWH ! :D
 Hellos people. This "long" break has set me thinking much about my plans for 'A' lvl. And proudly to say, I have organised my timetable (: Of course, the determination to win them spurred me to do so. Watch your back, people ! Ada is coming right behind you !
 A: "Hey Baby. Do you know me well enough to understand what I am thinking ?" B: "Definitely. You are my baby." A: "You sure ? Then what am I thinking about now ?" B: "Me ? Cause I am always in your mind ?" A: "No, baby. I am thinking of how to breakup with you." It just shows how much you truly understand a person. By judging one based on his or her personality is never enough. You have to go deeper than that. Do you understand ?
 "Everyone is just a human.""Don't hurt us emotionally." I got an 'A' for PW ! :D Hahahahas. Congrats to my PW team with all of us getting an 'A' except for XY. Ahhhhs. Feel damn sad for her. But she says she feels satisfied in getting a 'B'. All the efforts have been paid & I would like to offer my gratitude to Mr Chue ! You have helped us alot alot for the past one year and thanks for aiding us throughout the whole process (: Anyway, with regards to th issue, I am still under my GP teacher till 'A' level. Honestly speaking, I am shocked. Really shocked to th max to hear that my GP teacher has been hospitalised. Concerns of her health are overwhelming me and I feel so sad for her. I seriously am able to sympathise with her cause in my eyes, she has always been an awesome teacher who spares her break just to teach me essay writing skills. She's so ready to mark all the additional essays that I submit to her and encourages me to attempt more varieties of questions. Also, she constantly questions about my tight band schedule & shares her empathy with me. I mean, where can you find such a good & great teacher like her ? I just couldn't find any faults with her. My heartfelt words to my teacher if you happen to chance upon it: Ms Wong. You have been a fabulous teacher since the beginning of the year, teaching me lots of writing skills & imparting me many of your knowlege on GP. During the one-one consultation, I told you about my prospective career which leads to me having the need for a good GP grade. You did not laugh at me and told me that even with "simple language" (not flowery type), I can still get the results I wanted eventually. Do you know that spurred me to work even harder ? You are always so ready to mark my essays and offer me your comments on it. You are always so concerned about my band even though you are not my band teacher. You always care & understand which fits my impression of a good teacher. Thanks for all the things you have done for me & Please get well soon so that you can direct all your energy in teaching the six of us (: Takecare, Ms Wong !  Subway@YewTeePoint Rocks. Glad tht I made tht my dinner today. Saw ex-PJC Seniors as servers and they are so friendly (: Hahahahas. We chatted while she was preparing my sandwich & discovered some things in common. Definitely have a hearty chat with them & thanks for the encouragement. Loooooves ya & the Cold Cut Trio Sandwich. Yummy ! :D  Sometimes, life doesn't go on a regular pace. It makes you fall to th brim of the cliff and leave you hanging there ALONE. Seeing some smiles & gloomy faces in th lecture today sets me pondering about the effects of having to face th reality. All along, I always love the idea that smiles are meant to minimize the emotional pain that one faces in life. But gloomy faces ? I really don't know. I am like a little lost sheep who is waiting for someone to scold me & wake me up. Thanks to a teacher, I almost cried in school today, learning that what I am doing now is just not right. He wrote on my exam paper:"sigh. I am extremely disappointed in you." I was sooo shocked that I read his comments umpteen time. At that point of time, I could really feel his disappointment in me. Very Very disappointed. Friends said that was because he thinks I have the potential & was disappointed that I didn't meet his expectations. I don't know. I do know that hard work is not enough. I really have to talk to him about my weakness. Let's face it. Nobody loves hearing about their own weakness. But ain't that supposed to make you improve ? I believe so. And I would like to tell the teacher that "Apologising will not cure the problem. I have to understand where my problems lie and please give me one last chance to prove to you that I will make an improvement by mid-year. Please believe me one last time." In addition, half of my class voted my GP teacher out as they believe that a Relief Teacher will serve to be useful to their learning. I was so appalled that we lost the voting. I can't believe that my class is willing to gamble away their future with a RT. Honestly, I was speechless. I have no idea what I am going to do without an experienced GP teacher. People, Just tell me how. Half the class who voted for RT have strong command of language. But have your spared a thought for those who are weak and wants to learn & improve ? No right ? And my "friend" stills argue with me that experience is not an important factor for someone to teach a graduating class GP. This was th expression -.- that I gave her. Anyway, tried drowning all my unhappiness by walking in the rain with K. He is a super nice guy who is willing to lend me his ears. Thanks K, and the "rain-journey" was pretty awesome right ? (:
 I’m standing on the stairs in a magnificent hall Wearing the dress that I bought for the ball It’s long and flowing, sparkling white My tiara of diamonds shines in the light At the bottom of the stairs you’re waiting for me And I gracefully float down for all to see You take my hand and touch my face You’re the only one I notice in the expansive space We’re now dancing in shadows of flickering light Holding each other close, holding each other tight You kiss my neck and then touch my face Then kiss my lips in a loving embrace Time stands still whilst we are together Feels so good, it seems like forever I look at the clock, that cannot be right But the bells start to chime, confirming midnight But there’s no need to leave From the ball tonight I’ll be with you my prince For the rest of our life.  I am finally back frm th band camp !Proud to say it was enjoyable except for th bad fall on my knee. So I am now limping whereever I go. Like so not-convenient. Anyway, I loove the games & th interaction with th juniors. Sorry to th fact that I still can't remember your names. But at least your know me, right ? (: Grp 4 rocks to the max ! Hahahahahahas. Now it's time to get into the study mood. cause I really did very badly for this CT. Gosh Gosh. I am soooo sleepy now. Toodles !
 Fun is the best descriptive term for today. Got back my lit unseen for Paper 5 CT. Hms, definitely what I expected. casue it's incomplete & I think tht I should have focus more on this. Ahs. Another regret. Went for 8 rounds of running in 24 mins. Whoas. I was so surprised at myself for the continuous pace. Guess my determination helps alot. Hahahas. Having band camp tomorrow. 2 days 1 night. whether it's good or bad, we shall see for ourselves.  Lies are a form of coverage,coverage of imperfection. It always happen whenever you feel like hiding the imperfect truth tht the person wants to hear. Fabricating a white lie to satisfy the ears of the person. but is it right ? Sometimes, it's best to hear the truth cause you need more lies to cover up your lies. |
