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Such a pretty face; Not meant to be mine.
When the journey becomes difficult, turn back and look at the shadow waiting for you at the corner.
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Your voice will be heard;
The ones that stood by me;Y Cheryl Dong Hui Evelyn Jazreel Jing Ting Lynn 'PJC Lynn Magon PJCSB Qian Yun Shu Ni Si Hui Xue Ting Yi Fang The past and the future;
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 I am really sick and tired of what you are doing.It's beyond my ability to understand. and please continue to judge us. I know we are not-so perfect in your eyes so let that be it. Just stop appearing before me. Thanks. Anyway, i find it appalling tt my misery are unexplained. I just can't relate it to anyone. Everybody is selfish for their own sake. They put on a facade infront of you, acting like they are worse off than you. What's stupid is tt they just want to outwin you, at all costs. Disgusting right ? Thats my "friends" we are talking about.  Honestly, it's definitely not up to my mouth to speak ill of "you", like literally. But you leave me with no choice at all. This is going to turn out to be a long rant because I could no longer tolerate your own kind of treatment on us. You can't judge us based on what, our results or anything. It's seriously none of your business. What the heck is wrong with you, passing off critical judgement of others and acting as though you seriously care about us. Just bloody hell leave us alone, can you ? Don't act superior infront of us. It's not going to work. You are using your literal hands to push us to the brim, not salvaging the situation. You are not helping us at all. Seriously. You sucks to the max, honestly. I am feeling damn screwed up, arghs.  Tomorrow is the begining of another hectic term. Just saw my lit schedule for both papers. And I can say it's going to be alot of hard work for this term. I think there is no use complaining. Isn't that what we have to face in life ? It's just a pre-showdown of th stressful society. Enjoy it, muggers !  A lovely poem to be shared: I used to dream of eyes so blue And loving arms to hold me. I used to dream of heroic knights And how gracious they would be. I used to dream of how I wouldn’t settle For anything less than best. I used to dream of how he would majestically Lay all fears to rest. I used to dream of fairy tales, How wondrous would they be I used to dream of story books All patterned after me. I used to dream of a lot of things, But the moment I met you, I immediately stopped dreaming, Because all of my dreams came true.
 Choices are hard to make.It even sucks when you tread wrongly. that's what happen today. I am not going to rant on it cause it spoils my mood. But honestly, I was definitely shocked to th max and regret making my choice. whatever. irritating memories.  Saw this amazing trailer. Gosh Gosh ! It's my favourite Zac Efron ! :D I was like drooling & gushing over him. Hot hot. Too dazzling. Hahahas. I know I am like wowing over him. But I really looves him to th core. Will definitely catch his movie in 16 April. Anyone wants to watch with me ? (: hahahahas.
 Today has been a perfect day. Slacking around, pondering much. Realise that slacker's life is indeed great. It's just that there is no aim in life & money don't drop frm the sky. Obviously. Tmr's outing with my 3 dudes & dudttes. Hahahas. Still considering whether I shld go or not. Duh. I know I am fickle-minded. But that's just me, right ? Byes.  Wearing the silk gown that brings out my slender figure. Posing in the middle of the hall to seek for the attention you once given. You turned and beheld a woman with her riches. So close, So tight. Pushing me to the brim of suffocation. Just let me go to the corner of the room, to find someone better than you.
 To be either In or Out.It's definitely not what I can control. Finished all my H2 paper ! And I am aniticipating the arrival of tomorrow. Of course, not th math paper. It's the END OF COMMON TEST ! :D My hands are soo numb tt I could not even hold my spoon during dinner. Th reason behind it ? Wrote 7 Essays & 1 Case studies today. It's really draining all my strength. Being awake throughout yesterday night to memorise Econs doesn't make it feel better. During the exam, there are occasional moments where I feel like slaping myself awake. But I didn't. Cause I don't wish to be seeing the councillors for what- physical assault . Hahahahas. Okays. Too tired to complain anymore. Toodles everyone. Maths is just a not-so-irritating subject.  Gosh. My head is filled with historical facts. Definitely in need of some energy boosting. Look at Zac Efron. That will keep all girls awake :D Feel apprecative towards my bro for helping me with my history. Nahs. He just test me . Nothing on teaching part. Went jogging with him for the compensation of yesterday. What happen was I told him to wake me up when the rain stops. And he did not. He said I was too tired for a run & he can run on his own. Hms, guess it's great to have a bro sometimes. Have to study for history & econs again. Cause my bitchy parents are criticising on my usage of com for half an hour. Duhs. Whatever.  Today is another productive day with yf. She is completely awesome. The way she expresses her knowlege makes me go wows. Honestly, I think she will ace her 'A' level history in times to come. Hahahahas. She's my admiration now. Anyway, I told her that I have not even touch Econs and she goes like this: Yf:"Are you serious ? There are alot of stuffs for Econs leh!" Then I went home & check. Darn ! It's seriously ALOT! ): What the. I can't possibly remember everything right. What's more is my Econs paper is on the same day as my Lit paper. Both are equally important. I think I am damn screwed up. Common Test is indeed for common people. Duh. Duh. I miss J1's life. Screw the J2's ! Oh no. Oh no. 3 more days to Common Test ): I feel so wasted. I can't get all the facts in my head. Arghs.  Been hearing people talking continuously today. Lit remedial with the H1 was enriching. I guess they talk in a more simplistic manner compared to the H2. It's easier to comprehend. I have learnt alot from their discussion today, knowing the expectations for Othello. Right after that was history consultation with Japhet. Oh my. He really aid us alot in our understanding towards cold war. He cleared all our doubts and teached us how to ace our history. I finally realise my mistake. Darn. I always thought that factors are equivalent to criterias. No wonder I am always at the bottomline passing grade. Anyway, thanks for the explanation today plus the lame jokes which is obviously lame to the core -.- Steven, Joanne, Jeevita and I headed to lot one library for an intensive drilling on maths. It's tiring me out. Maths sucks to the max. I can't do math at all. I can't count, I can't do. That's it. Say bye to the math common test.
 Finally, got an 8G Itouch, with my own money.Yeas. I hereby announce that I am officially broke. With the fact that I am now a penniless girl. Anyway, this is my birthday treat to myself, with an extravagant purchase of $456. The games are soooo addictive but self-control is being practiced here. I am aware that my common test is still on. OhOh ! I am so excited over the Itouch. It's definitely the greatest invention :D Thumbs up to Apple !  Ain't he adorable ? hahahahas. He's my latest addiction. Tabo ! :D I loooveees him alright ?! hahahahas.  Life hasn't been great for the past few days.Yeas. You know. Those hic-ups in life. Honestly, I have never been truly happy ever since the beginning of the year. Many people said that I am stressed up with J2 work. I don't know. Often, I question myself. "Am I working hard to overcome the stress?" I guess not. Common Test has been not-so-good. I can't finish both my GP & Lit paper 5. I blame it on my slow thinking. But is it the true cause ? Who should I push the blame to ? Nobody. Just me. This upcoming holiday is just preparation for the rest of the subs. You ask me. Are you ready for it ? My answer will be "uhhhs. think so." This doubt often reveals my uncertainty, my tiredness and everything. I am seriously unsure of myself. The passion has stop burning within me. I am just a nobody. Byes.  What you are seeing may not be what you perceive. What you are hearing may not be what you understand. Question yourself to get the truth out of it.  Feeling so down.I am disppointed in myself. How could I have done so badly ? It's depressing to know the subject you love most is giving you the misery. I am really lost. I don't know what to do. Common Test is starting this week. Guess I have to face it. I need to regain my teacher's faith in me. But is it possible ? I don't know.  The way you smile at me. The way you look at me. The way you gaze at me. The way you stare at me. It all seems so perfect but deadly.
 Life is just full of unpredictable happenings. You may not receive the hard work you have put in. And instead, it sets you pondering. Why the hard work, when acheivements seems so unattainable ? I beg to differ. Hard work is such part of the process towards acheivements. Acheivements come from the determination & motivation within oneself. It's hard to believe. The root of success is just determination, with a goal in mind. Peseverance sets one through all obstacles and never regret that you start early. As my history teacher quote, "Start now. And you will realise that you have time for everything." Yes. I definitely agree with that. But what my mum said to me today seems to pull me out from my own struggle. She said to me, "If I know I have 8 more months left before A's, I will just push myself all the way through. Why let yourself regret and worry for A's ? Will you be among the people scoring three distinctions and more ? If not, I suggest you go back to poly now. Start all from the beginning. Cause you always say you know what you are doing. But in fact, you don't. I know that you will only work hard when the A's are nearing. What's the point ? Why not just push yourself for this year and let go of whatever is hindering you from moving forward ? Ada, wake up. Face the reality that you need to change your personality. Don't always leave in regret. My advice, Let go of everything and be on your own now." Mum, I understand your intention. I will let go of everything from today onwards. Studies has become my life and I promise you that you will see a different me during the release of A's results next year. I really promise. I will change. And I will make you be proud of me.  Ugly is just a perception.Beauty is just a deception. So, why bother ?
Duhs. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ADA ! :D  HAHAHAHAS ! I am finally eighteen ! Considering the things that I can do, it seriously feel awesome ! I still feel young though, not a teenyweeny bit of feeling old (: Meet my awesome BFFS !  We set off on the mission of not shopping, but eating . We went Taka to eat the finger foods -> Paragon for lovely Italian ice-cream -> Far East for Slice. Food makes us happy. Gossiping makes us even happier ! :D Cheryl & YiFang.
Lit lesson was super fun today ! We had china teachers attending our lesson & our class was like in debate on Plath's poems. I learnt quite alot from today's tutorial and realised that questioning your opinions is a way of learning :D |
They never fail to make my day ! :D
Got a suprise gift from them which did touch me ! Thanks lots, babes ! Your have really made my 18th birthday a memorable one :D I can't wait for YF's birthday ! A trip to Seoul Garden ! WoooooooHooooos .
